being a cis woman
Would you settle for being a woman?
I could try, but I’m not a woman, I’m not even on hrt yet, I’ll start diy as soon as my package arrives, but even then I’ll never pass. And it’s all my fault, I knew it since I was 13, but didn’t do anything about it, cuz I’m a fucking retard or something. everything in my live is just dark-gray and the only way to brigthen it up are drugs…
anyway, how was your day?
If you can get professionals involved that would probably be safer than doing anything DIY. Even just one appointment to discuss it with someone.
Wish I could support you better. I don’t think it’s the end of the world whether or not you pass. As we’ve seen lately in the media, it actually might make you feel more like a woman having people question the nature of your body.
Being actually listened to.
Also, if bureaucracy wasn’t such a clusterfuck.
Dopamine and serotonin.
Removed by mod
The exact amount of money I have in debts at the moment.
If I was 100% debt free I could work 3-4 days a week with the same amount of money left as with debts.
This would reduce stress and give me more time and energy to improve myself
right now a shower
Getting to meet in person the close friends I have made online
A coupl’ more of cats
Good w/ cheese. So I hear.
A permanent place to live
I want so much for you to have this! Others do to.
Less stress. Less worry. More time free to recuperate and enjoy things.
If I could convince my friend to stop smoking.
if you hinge your life satisfaction out of how much power you have over others, imagine how satisfying life could be if you focused on the things that are actually in your control!
Tell him you know a way to stop paying a ton of taxes
“OK, you’ve finished your first play through. Now go back a handful of decades and don’t do the same fuck-ups.”
Getting rid of 35kg of fat.
Long term, low intencity depression doesn’t make it easy though.
Life stability and security. If all of my bills and debts were taken care of, I would be happy. I love my job as a welder and enjoy what I do. I look forward to the new work week on Monday morning.
I would continue working as a welder, even if I didn’t have to worry about money and bills.
I too wish for the Star Trek Universe.
You wouldn’t mind toiling for gold-pressed latinum?
I wish I knew.
Need a good brain storming sesh?
I’m not sure if that will help. I’ve been what people would call emotionally numb for a while. Most of how I come across as feeling comes from memory of feeling that way.
I think this applies to me too. Being properly medicated helps. End of the day though I’m not really sure what would “make me happy.” Personally, I’d like to reduce stressors and spend more time being creative. I usually don’t have the mental capacity to stay focused enough after work.
I do get glimpses of happiness. I’m probably more in touch with my vulnerable side, though. Finding something that will release some water from my eyes always gets backfilled with a feeling of relief and joy. Last time I got high and watched the boy the mole the fox and the horse, I was balling. It felt good. I just hope you don’t take pride in the hardened shell that’s grown around you. You’ll never be motivated to chisel away at it.
Name checks out hugs @[email protected] Maybe not something I’d feel for myself, but I’d be happy being here for you if we find each other around and there’s ever anything you might need, such as a favor or collab. Time spent with friends and other “apophenia” are the closest I get to being normal in this regard anyways.
