I, just wanna stop feeling anything. Never had friends but I could live with that, but I just want someone to embrace, someone that feels something for me, even if doesn’t last. Better than 0 for the rest of my life. This situation is slowly killing me.
The only thing that gives me some relief is gaming… (I read the post of like a week ago here that several dudes met their partner thanks to a videogame and I felt even sadder, why that wasn’t me? I’ve been gaming for 30 years now).
I wish that’s how would work to me… Trust me, is not. And again I really don’t care about others people’s hobbies most of the time, I don’t expect a person doing the same, if only I could be with someone without being “forced” to become someone else.
And I can’t go to have some fun when nothing gives me fun.