Basically the sister question of that other post here…
I tried to add my frustration there, but i think it’s suited here more. I’m a terrible candidate with no money, properties and almost zero social skills and that will never change. Even my own family thinks I don’t act like a human being. No wonder I’m eternally alone.
I also never felt like I belonged anywhere, always thinking I was some dude that just didn’t get the training on how to be a human that everyone else received. I used to be surprised that friends would know things about social matters like it was evident, but somehow I was completely 100% unaware of. I had trouble making friends all together, but was able to learn to program on QBasic on my own as a 12 y/o out of boredom. As I hit adolescence, I started to feel like a foreigner in my own family. I couldn’t wait to get out of that house. I was also pretty weird or sensitive about some things, yet completely fine with other things that people hated. Call to order delivery? Screw that, I’m staying hungry. It’s 90°F out? Don’t turn the A/C on in the car or I will get a headache.1.5k miles road trip by myself? Sure! Turns out I was just autistic and no one told me.
OP, you ever consider you might be autistic? Might wanna take some online questionnaires to check into it further.
I’m not. Even if I had some illness I don’t wanna know, it would kill me knowing that.