A lot of people on here have already admitted defeat or something. It’s honestly depressing. I forced myself out of my house, my heart pounding with anxiety each time for a short walk. But every time it got easier. Then I tasked myself with simply buying something in a shop. Just a small snack. It was terrifying at first, but it got easier. Then it was taking a bus into a city. I’d just wander around and not do anything but look at buildings, talk to nobody. Then I tried shopping. Then I tried finding events and observing them, sitting at the back and watching church services, etc. People would approach me to talk to me. I’d be terrified, but each time it happened it would get easier. I forced myself into a course and was terrified, I wouldn’t even leave the classroom. But then as each week passed I was able to go ten metres down the corridor to use the toilet. Eventually in a few years time I was able to go with classmates to a cafeteria. Then I was able to do a work placement and get a job.

It was painful. I envy people who can do something like this easily first try. But I do not regret it one bit.

“Touch grass” is a common snide remark. But I say literally, touch grass, be proud of yourself for it, and keep setting yourself little quests each time. It’ll work wonders.

Oh, and I did meet a girl, too. So that also counts for something 🤣