A lot depends on the safety of the country and what your next steps will be. If you want to transition fully, at some point you need to tell her that it isn’t a debate or conversation; you’re going to transition and she can either get on board or not. Prepare to live independently in case she refuses to accept you. The key is making it absolutely clear that there is no possibility of her convincing you to “live normally.”

If your country is especially dangerous and unsupportive, you’ll probably need to “stealth” as a cis woman in order to transition. You’ll need to choose either side of the binary, regardless of how you identify, and go all in to convincing strangers that you aren’t queer. You’ll need to gender conform and only deviate around known allies. In that situation, it’ll be important to to find local queer people and move out. In order to keep your sanity, you’ll need safe spaces, and living with someone transphobic will be miserable.

You can hope that you’re mom will accept reality, but it wouldn’t be safe to rely on that. If you want to transition and your family doesn’t support you, the best case scenario is you move on. Leave the door open for them coming back into your life, but only if they agree to accept unconditionally. Otherwise, you’ll hurt each other trying to create incompatible futures.

Maybe you could ask your therapist if she could come with you for one session? Having a neutral person with you might help getting your points across.

And saying what language she speaks might help others finding some resources for her that she can read.

I’m sorry this is happening to you. I had similar problems with my parents. (But I am not transfem, just queer.)

Do you live with your mom? How long will that continue? Are you financially dependent on her? I ask because depending on her temperament your strategy will need to be more careful if so.

You say she belongs to a religion, some flavor of Christianity. I’m sure you get stories about Christians misbehaving all the time. The next time she says something about a trans person doing something actually bad (like setting something on fire?), bring up Christian misbehavior. Ask her if that means all Christians are bad. (You could do this with really any group she respects or identifies with.) When she says no, segue that into saying that there are bad folks from every group but that doesn’t mean the group is bad.

When she complains about what she thinks is misbehavior but is really not, such as queer people making fun of religion, also turn that around. Has she made fun of atheists/other religions, or does she look up to people that do? Bring that up. She will likely double double down and say it’s different, but insist it is not.

When she complains about a non-issue, like a masc person wearing a dress, you can just reiterate about what not a problem it is. So if she says something like “Look at that man with painted nails… shameful.” You can say something like “I don’t see the problem, he looks like he’s just living his life.” You can disengage but not agree with her at any time… but if she keeps digging like “well he shouldn’t do that,” just ask “Why?” to things that don’t make sense. It will boil down to a core belief that you can choose to challenge or not.

Your other option is just to not really react. Just respond with the bare minimum, like “ok.” Look up gray rocking.

There will always be people that don’t like you, some for stupid reasons, some for petty reasons, and some for valid reasons. It really hurts when someone you care about holds a poor opinion of you, and it’s not because of something you did wrong. At some point though, if her opinion doesn’t lighten up, you will just have to accept that is how she is. But the same way you cannot control her, she cannot control you. You can choose how much your mom is in your life. (And if you are a minor, you still have some control over this. She will only know what you share with her and what she can find out herself. You can only give her the bare minimum if you wish.)

Good luck out there. It sounds like she wants what’s best for you but doesn’t know much about queer people so hopefully she will come around.

It sounds like she’s skeptical of you being trans and was hoping it was a phase. Bringing up HRT has made her understand that it’s not.

The rest is her fear. Rather it’s transphobia or fear of you having to live as a trans person and face bogotry is an important consideration.

Having her sit in on therapy, as someone else suggested, sounds like a good path forward. Address her fears and the fact that HRT is health care. If she can’t support your health after that, she’s not supportiv.

It might help to know the country / cultural context you are in. A lot of people here are likely to be Westerners, and the advice they give may or may not work well in the culture you are in.

Either way, you are in a position where your mom has been indoctrinated by her religion into false beliefs and propaganda, and it is usually not easy to change someone’s mind on those kinds of things. You can certainly try to provide a different perspective, but she is likely to trust the church and her brainwashed perspective and will interpret your perspective as the deluded one. If she is really open minded enough, you could try to spend time with more trans and gay folks and have her get to know some of them and spend time with them in gay spaces, etc.

Sometimes the bigotry doesn’t survive exposure to normal people who are gay or trans, but ultimately she has to be willing to let go of those brainwashed Christian perspectives and be open to a different reality. Even if she does that, it can put her in a really challenging position with regards to her community. If she accepts trans and gay people it can lead to tensions with her church community, who may think she is doing something wrong. There are many things reinforcing her commitments to her bigotry, and you should prepare yourself for the possibility that those things might be stronger than her bonds with you (as disturbing as that is).

To that end, my practical advice:

Seek financial independence, no matter whether your mother accepts you or not, you need to be able to survive without her support since there is a possibility now that she will try to intercede in your transition and threaten your survival.

I don’t know how HRT and transition will be for you, but for me it is a medical concern. Before HRT at least since puberty I have had clinically significant depression, anxiety, and suicidal thoughts that I didn’t realize were not normal to experience, and which all went away once I was injecting sufficient amounts of estrogen.

When there are lapses in my HRT, the depression, anxiety, and suicidal thoughts come back strongly and they significantly interfere with my ability to function in my daily life. For me, HRT is essential medicine, no different than thyroid medication or insulin for patients dealing with those endocrine conditions.

It may or may not help for you to see your own transition in a similar way. The unfortunate situation is that society is hostile to trans people, and that means you will need to do more to protect your needs that you should ideally have to. No one with diabetes has to work this hard to convince their parents they need insulin, or that their diabetes is a real condition.

I should also say: being trans is not always a medical condition, and HRT doesn’t work the same for all people (some trans folks never take HRT). My point is not to gatekeep or imply being trans is always medical - my point is that transitioning is important even for those trans people without medical transition, and their identity is worth the same respect we give anyone else.

It just happened that my mental health significantly improved with HRT and some other trans people experience the same, and by coincidence this helped me mentally justify and survive in an anti-trans place because for me HRT is a medical necessity.

My encouragement is that you take care of yourself, prioritize your needs, and be prepared to put your needs first. To that end, you need the means to be able to do that. Save money that no one knows you are saving, and save it where no one can take it from you. Be prepared and have plans for how to meet your needs. Connect with the local gay community and find people who can help you.

I wish you luck. Ideally your mom will put her daughter first, but at least be prepared for a variety of outcomes. Sometimes it takes parents years to come-around, and don’t despair if the relationship falls apart for a while. She may change in the future, she may realize she was wrong or at least see that her relationship with you matters.

I’d be really interested in what someone from the community would do in public that they shouldn’t do in your country? Is that just existing or celebrating pride in public? Or is it, like, streaking?

I think peoples advice here is already good, but you need to think long term next. Is it safe to transition around her? Will you be supported no matter what, or will she eventually kick you out if you live with her? I know this is hard to think about, but it’s really important to think about your own safety and plan for it. If you think she’d kick you out at some point, try to find a place where you’d be safe. Try to find some level of community in the local trans community there (even if you don’t think there isn’t one, there absolutely is), so you have somewhere to go, and someone to be around that supports you and who you are.

Based on what you’ve already said you also need to decide if you actually CAN convince her right now, or if she’ll have to see you advance in your transition to see the difference in you as a person in order to start to understand. You should also consider what your point of no return is. What could she do that makes you not feel safe anymore? And how much energy are you willing to invest in this before you set up a hard boundary?

She seems to be intensely Christian. It can be hard to convince them to accept you because they genuinely think your existence is a sin or that you can be queer but being in public and queer is a sin. They’ll also do what you were saying, point out what they view as “problems” in the community in order to try and “save” you. That can be immensely disheartening, and you should consider your future with her in your life or if it’d be better to get as much distance from her as you’re comfortable with. Because it usually takes a big shift in order for someone like that to change their beliefs, just having good points won’t really convince them.

You shouldn’t feel ashamed for being trans, and you need to consider whether her continuing to say those things you talked about could make you second guess or consider not transition because of her, not because of your own wants. Your happiness comes first, and if she’s a good mom, she should see you be happier and accept you.

I know all this is hard, having a parent who disrespects your existence is devastating. But that’s just the reality for a lot of us. Particularly at the start. It took my dad 4 years to even use my name. Talk to your therapist for coping mechanisms so you can make sure your mental health isn’t as deeply impacted as it can be when facing this situation. Make sure you can be somewhere safe during times when your emotions overwhelm you and remember, it’s okay to cry.

Again, you deserve to be yourself and be happy and be accepted by those around you. If your mom doesn’t accept you at the start, that might change, but it might not, and that’s okay, even if it’s hard. You can live a happy and awesome life without the support of your parents. Never feel like you are unlovable or like no one will ever love you, that’s fucking bullshit and you are deserving of love and will find someone who loves you for you, I guarantee it.

Just consider (Think about if that could help. I mean it. It could backfire.) showing her bad stuff Christians or non-LGBT people did, every time she shows you that stuff. I’m 100% sure there is more. The point is showing her it’s purely anecdotal evidence and all arguments she would bring up in defense would also be valid for LGBT peoples defense.