Okay so this isn’t internet related but I’ve been thinking about it a lot lately so I’m sharing.

I vividally remember going to a daycare as a young kid. I don’t remember much of the activities and playing, but I remember the nap room like it was yesterday. There was a mean old lady who was in charge of watching the kids nap, everyone had to nap at the same time and the other daycare staff would go out to lunch or something. Most of the kids had sleeping bags and stuffed animals, some had foam houses where they would sleep in. It was just a room with those gym mats on the floor, I remember just having a thin throw blanket so one of the kids who had a foam house would share his stuff with me.

I remember it so well because the old lady was cruel, she wouldn’t let kids go to the bathroom, I guess because she had to stay there and we couldn’t wander to the bathroom alone. Everyday there would be kids who peed themselves and it just got chalked up to kids wetting the bed.

Looking back on it was so weird. The issue, I asked my mom about it a few years back and she said I never went to daycare, we were always dirt poor and no way could she afford it, but she was also heavy on drugs at the time and there’s a lot of stuff she doesn’t remember. But I don’t see how I would’ve been in daycare, or why, she hasn’t worked since I was born, in that time period we were in and out of shelters or staying with her friends… I don’t know but I remember it and stand by it with my whole heart.

An Evangelion AMV set to I’m Not Okay (I Promise) by My Chemical Romance. It was on YouTube and uploaded by a channel Ahhh123the8ball. But taken down for music reasons. Many years ago.

There are a few things but I don’t think I can really talk about them here. So, I’ll just mention that there was this old browser game on Cartoon Network’s website that I remember playing when I was younger. It was based on Xiaolin Showdown and, while I don’t remember exactly what the gameplay was like, it was a fully 3D game and I think I remember it being a platformer. I have never been able to find this game or even any information about it existing, anywhere. I’ve even checked Bluemaxima’s Flashpoint and it’s not archived there either.

I watched this video of Jack Antonoff showing how he created one of his songs - I think it was “I want to get better” - and it was fascinating. I copied the link so I could show my wife when I got home, but when I went to use it I got a 404. Searched like crazy and was never able to find it.

There are songs that I remember from OC Remix that were purged for some reason and I will never hear them again.

Should have hoarded that data better.

Circa 1999, a website where part of it was called “Walken’s World”. A theme park run by Christopher Walken.

Also another site that was pretty much a blog of some guy’s insane sexual escapades that usually involved dwarves

Back in the day, one of those computer magazines that included a CD full of demos, videos and other random stuff… It included some program that had a list of maybe hundred of games, for which i think it had… The cheat codes? I don’t remember. I remember it had a banger of a tracker/mod song. And more amazingly, it even played using the internal speaker, playing somehow real audio. I never again found that CD, nor that song :(

A movie I saw as a kid about the lives of a few people living on huge metal cities that were mobile, roaming the dried, decayed Earth on treads, occasionally sparring other cities that got too close like rival ships. There was an overhead scene of two kids running down a path near the edge, before chasing each other back into the buildings.

Think Mortal Engines. Except where Mortal Engines was released in 2018, I watched this movie when I was in my early teens at the latest. Before 2010.

Now here’s the interesting thing: there was a Mortal Engines book released in 2001. But I absolutely do not believe I have or had the capacity for such a vivid mental recreation of the novel.

A recording of University of Oklahoma legend, Brian Bosworth, ranting about the University of Texas. I remember him saying, “I hate cows. I hate orange.” Pretty sure I originally heard the rant on AM 1310 The Ticket in the late 1990s. I have searched a few times over the years without finding it. Every year that passes makes me feel less likely to find it.

There is an old 2000’s flash escape the room Japanese game where you need to fix a teddy bear. Not only that, it’s a whole game series. In another game of the series you have to open the drawers of a cabinet in the right order according to a calendar or TV.

Back in the mid 2000s I made a fan website dedicated to my favorite game character, kirby, on one of those “build your own website” type sites. I remember I was like 8 and working on it quite a lot. The site was aimed at like kids / teenagers I think. Can’t remember what it was called to save my life. It definitely does not still exist, but the idea is that I could somehow find the site I made in a backup somewhere. Ive done some pretty deliberate searching over the years but still cant remember what the site builder/hoster was called. Something that started with a P, or had a P in the name, maybe?

An account on a personal website or maybe a kayaking forum from around 2000: a sea kayaker described paddling with friends off the coast of Nanaimo, BC (I think). He wanted to paddle a bit more when the friends headed for shore. When he decided to join them, huge swells had started to come from the north, making it dangerous/impossible to ferry (paddle crosswise to the current) without getting broached and dumped. So he surfed down the swells, trying to angle toward shore as much as felt safe. He described riding a single swell for a long time, maybe multiple hours, before the sea calmed down enough for him to get to shore, now many miles south of where he started. I remember his description of combined terror and thrill: he could get flipped and–in the big sea–maybe never get rolled back up, just hanging onto his boat hoping for rescue, but here he was, surfing down the face of what seemed like an eternal wave, constantly at the edge of his ability to keep a line.

I’ve looked for that thing over a dozen times, spent maybe 20-30 hours searching over the past decade. No luck, yet.

A website or page called Toni the pit pony, had a picture of the pony in the centre and around the outside buttons that said stuff like “he said it is but I bet it isn’t” but in a coalmining accent so “ee sez e iz buh e bet eenizzant” when pressed it played the audio of some old miner saying it. Fantastic but sadly lost to the depths of time. It’s from around late 90s

A weird flash video cartoon about a news report of a disease called crapola - a play on Ebola if I remember correctly. It was stupid but made me chuckle. In my head at this point it is way funnier than it likely actually was so I’ll likely be disappointed if I ever do find it again.

It hasn’t even been that long, but there was a couple that started building their own homestead in Spain or Portugal (I think) on YouTube. They had laid out the foundation and layout, gotten a mini excavator. They had already built it renovated a sorry of workspace.

I can’t for the life of me find it anymore. Searched on YouTube obviously, tried finding it in other ways. Tried more generic search terms (maybe it wasn’t in Spain/Portugal after all), It doesn’t seem to exist.