I was texting my friend (and I’m a notoriously dry texter). I also have depression and do not like socializing at all. In fact, I’m friends with these two women and we complain about how much people suck.
I’ve not been feeling in a mood to socialize lately, especially with my depression and not liking social stuff. However, I started to type in all caps to my friend after she asked what I was doing and if I was okay.
After typing “I’M. WATCHING. A MOVIE” in all caps, she sent me one last message that she was going to leave me alone, and then later blocked me? I talked to a friend about it, and she said that since I was always getting mad and treating people badly, the woman who blocked me was giving me some space.
Does this mean the friendship’s over?
I remember a while ago, asking my friend (the one who blocked me) if she knew how to play a game, and she said no, so I gave her my phone to fiddle with. She has poor reflexes, has never played the game, and the phone was laggy, but I took the phone away and told her it was “my turn now” because she was struggling.
(Also, I want to acknowledge that I’m probably in a bad mental space, so this will be the last thing I post for a while until my people skills and depression get better. After all, if I’m having trouble making the effort to respond to my friends and I’m constantly getting mad/impatient at everyone, however useless they may be, and the fact that I keep posting about my interactions, I should probably take a break.
If you’re not feeling like being around people, don’t be around people. If you need social interaction, you have to make the effort to make people want to be around you. Sure, you might find some people that’ll get you and put up with you being a dick to them, but that’s pretty rare. Especially in a time where people are feeling comfortable going no contact with their family.
Relationships are a two way street and take effort. Take some time to be your own friend. Be kind to yourself and you’ll find it easier to be kind to others.
Now the obvious, totally don’t mean it in a judgy way, part: If you’re not talking to a professional about your depression and desire to have positive social interactions, you should.
Good luck!