When all of your exes get to happily move on in relationships that aren’t you and you get nobody for extended periods of time.
While you’re prideful in yourself to know that whatever relationship you get won’t feel as tainted as theirs because maybe they’re manipulative. The thing about it is that, I’ve tried being upfront, honest, detailed and everything to get someone with.
And I guess working on yourself and trying to improve aren’t exactly attractable qualities.
This. I wish I lived during a time where we moved past these archaic systems and prejudices.
Politics and economics are things that have the most negative direct impact on my life, it took me 15 years to immigrate to somewhere somewhat better and 10 of those were also spent fighting for healthcare while fighting landlords, shitty bosses and other assorted bastards while under assault from right-wingers day in day out in all mainstream media, always on the edge of deportation and death, so much time wasted in my early 20s.
Coming to terms with death being in all likelihood the very near future when you’ve just had a taste of life for the first time is an indescribable feeling.
Otherwise I have zero regrets, I’ve unironically never made any bad decisions even in hindsight and I make far more privileged people than myself jealous with what I’ve managed to make of my situation.
If you live in the NL, go check out Rentbusters. They may help. Or maybe a worldwide Rentbuster initiative should be set up.