After what seems like a year of near constant stress, disappointment, and loneliness, I decided to stop sitting at my computer all day and start making better choices for myself. This was a really hard thing to do for me since I work from home about two feet from my entertainment area. I would end up sitting at my desk all day and neglecting things that I wanted to do and I wasn’t sure why.
This month I have:
Set up the Ender 3 V2 that was sitting in my closet for two years and printed out a bunch of cool shit with my kid.
Exercised every other day to try to help myself with some vicious joint pain that has developed recently.
Kept the dishes from piling up on my desk.
Made doctor and dentist appointments.
Don’t get me wrong, things are still stressful and disappointing, but I feel a lot better than I have in a long time. What have you done to care for yourself lately? Digging yourself out of depression is hard and I want to hear your successes, no matter how small they are.
Trying to stick to my feeding plan as much as I can. It gets difficult at times so every day I can check that box, I feel happy.
Using heavier weights for my workouts. It makes me feel great and so powerful to help my body fight stored trauma.
Using my words to be able to say what I want to say.
Yooooo!!! Me too!! I make sure to piss myself off real good before going to the gym. I’ll be pacing like a madman before I get in the car. I know I’m ready when I don’t even want to go outside because even sunlight is offensive. One time, I pushed it too hard and had to ground myself in the car at the gym parking lot for 15 mins. Between sets, I’m pacing and stimming with my earbuds in. Prolly look like I think I’m in a rap video.
I catch people side-eyeing me often. But, I could tell who gets it because I catch them doing similar and are friendly to me when we’re near each other.
I don’t know if this will work for the trauma eventually or just a mandatory habit now, but it’s made adjusting my weighted blanket a lot easier.
Keep it up!