How nice, Mr. Jingoism from last week is back again today, and is talking to our supervisor on the phone going on about how he has the chills and doesn’t feel really good and probably picked up something from the childcare (and this person has stacks of leave entitlements), thanks for making the rest of us sick too mate…

I’ve definitely put my foot down on meeting this person solo. The people who’d normally go with me aren’t available til next week. After which point we are past the deadline. I’ve communicated this back and provided a solution that I think should satisfy everyone… but it’s not my problem until Friday, meanwhile let’s hope someone monitors the shared inbox.

The person who normally goes on site and meets customers if necessary does it solo, I don’t quite have his mental fortitude! Not gonna hold myself up to his standards.

That’s fucked! I’m glad you have backups - warmth especially. Hope they restore power sooner. If not, then hope you at least get through the night and can get out during the day.

It fucken cold. And a long day. 11 hrs and nothing came easy today. The plus sides, though, are:

• my uni stuff got sorted in the nick of time
• I don’t need to redo my assignment
• I found out I have until 28 Oct to rectify my whole 3G phone network bizzo. Two more months of breathing space to enact firmware hack or give up and buy a new phone.
• I’m doing so much overtime I could probably take an extra day off and stretch it to 10 days away in Perth
• can avoid today’s Angery Customer until Friday
• avoided all the Weather today
• have stash of ready-made food in freezer
• pay day this week yey thank fuck
• barely used my car, can save on filling up until next low point
• long awaited haircut this week

It’s gonna be alright… tries not to dramatically sob into pillow

Can I just delete this week, it looks like a whole pile of Everything Difficult And Going Wrong On All Fronts. Very aggro customer response that I’m frankly scared to deal with and responded as best I could to the intermediary (cust. wants face to face meeting. I put my foot down). More to come in other job tomorrow. And now it turns out I’ve been enrolled into the wrong bloody uni subject because nobody was paying attention (including me)… and who the fuck knows what fresh hell that opens up with uni bureaucracy and CSP payments. plus my assignment is now 50% over the word limit. I want to disappear into the ground.

Sun was out on my way to work but had 3 layers on including a friggin ski jacket like it was the depths of winter again.

That was some feckin wind alright. Woke up a few times overnight. Had weird dreams of living for a few days in a hippie commune in the mountains of northern NSW and then leaving - only to be accosted on the outside by various people coming for me because of downed trees in their front yard… and I couldn’t get back into the commune because it was blocked by downed trees everywhere.

Was gonna walk to work this am but maybe I’ll tram it in and walk back instead. NO MORE BED!!! 💨

Blustery weather hasn’t made been such a trigger in past years, I feel like this is a bit more than that. But let’s see when the sun turns up next reliably 🫠 the forecast looks dire!

My scotch bonnet is probably regretting having put out its baby new growth.

Manzano got pruned a bit earlier and has much larger leaves so I think it’ll survive. Everything is parched though, dat vapour pressure gradient is sucking water out like no tomorrow

I did not, in fact, get out of bed and kept going back to sleep. I am pretty sure I’ve had plenty of sleep by now and this is just me heading towards a spiral of inactivity/depression. Somehow triggered by feelings of inadequacy/realising my mediocrity/decline in abilities from lack of engagement. Then deciding to get stuck in it because who am I doing any of this for? Ugh, I’ve been here enough times.

Anyway… tomorrow’s a new day.

Yeah I’ve put my family group chat on mute for today because of all the celebratory father’s days pics and whatnot and they all full well know what my father is like. Coupled with some other family drama that cropped up, easiest to just mute and move on

35/50, some lucky guesses and a surprising number of ones I actually knew!

Wow, totally bonkers dreams - epic story of environmental damage, human trafficking, my old work and family drama all in one. It would be too much to write it out, but it could’ve been a mildly interesting story of how a lowly environmental consultant discovers a massive crime operation through the cunning scrutiny of plans and unexpected access to certain areas. And then has to try and keep these developments secret while her family is in town for a big reunion but maybe some of them are involved as well…

Okay whatever, time to get out of bed.

It’s okay, you had some crucial retaining wall business to get done…

Laurent closes in 20 mins… do I go… no, I’ll make it a Sunday morning treat. So that it gets me out of the house. Just not feeling it today.

Vacuumed the house after like 3 weeks (gross ,I know) and that’s about all I want to do for the day. I did the most urgent thing and that’s good enough. zzzzz

Pretty chuffed with my sat morn brunch of leftover rice, leftover steamed broccoli stir fried with eggs, jarred ginger/garlic, and “olive vegetable” paste. Haven’t cooked in quite a while with the craziness/exhaustion of the last two weeks. There is something satisfying and grounding about making and eating your own meals, I should do some meal prep this weekend while I’ve got a bit of breathing space.

Long day but much more satisfied today and got a wee bit of walking in… plus my favourite aunt confirmed she WILL be available when I want to go see her after all - so I have something to look forward to at the end of September!! Yay! That’s really lifted my mood 🥰

Happy birthday, hope there’s no nastiness with in laws and the weekend erases any yucky things from this week! Make sure you don’t get a half portion. And if it’s good I wanna know where it’s from.

Don’t you know, plans are just suggestions. It’s all about the vibes these days.

I managed to sleep well after feeling like crapola yesterday night, and crucially, got out of bed at 7:30 instead of lolling about… got to work early to sit down and eat a proper breakfast 🍽

Today’s wordle was mean, I had to give up and use a solver.

Alright, time to crack on. The sun outside is delightful but bom says more wind tonight… and over the weekend… meh.