I see, just wanted to add after the last post, since it sounded like full DIY may probably too risky from your description: The physical changes will be visible at some point and things might end up badly once they put one and one together.

So if anything, that’d only leave puberty blockers: They’re more expensive than just injections, but they’d stop any further T-related changes from occurring and it’d take many years before anyone would notice that something is “off” and by that time you’d already have had legal agency for a while. (Naturally, you’d have to procure them illegally since you don’t have parenteral consent.)

(If you wish for physical changes toward a more feminine appearance getting your T down as soon as possible is unfortunatly pretty important for a good long-term result at your age.)

Since someone else mentioned it in a different context recently: Would DIY be helpful here? Or too risky? Not what you want? You’d need to hide the supplies somewhere out of your parent’s reach, but the immediate and long-term benefits of starting early might be worth it.

If it helps, starting DIY is really fine. The endocrinologist really doesn’t do anything you can’t do yourself with a monthly injection and a bloodtest (and even that is mostly for your own peace of mind). There are benefits in being “in the system” of course, but a lot depends on which doctor you end up with and what they prescribe: In the best-case it won’t be worse than what you’d get DIY (medically speaking), so you still need to know a lot of things regardless of which route you take.

That can work. We’ve been doing something similar: It’s slow gains (~8kg/year) but it worked for us.

Changes were:

• Increase all meal sizes by ~50% - At least for us it meant every meal went from being “decently filling” to “very (but not overly!) filling”. Don’t repeatedly, find the lining where it still feels OK and don’t cross. There is a risk of loosing your body’s sense of appitite when crossing repeatedly which causes serious long-term problems (eating disorder).
• Use lots of unsaturated fats when cooking: Olive oil is great for this - It doesn’t add much subjective weight to cooked foods, has a lot of kJ/g and doesn’t cause any metabolic disorders if used in consumable quantities (unliked saturated acids or sugars).
• Bananas and peanut butter also rank high on the “decently healthy, high energy scale” and can be incorperated as/into daytime snaks (mini-meals).

All of this from some reading on the subject and self experimentation - I’m not a nutritionist, etc. 😊