• Amerikan Pharaoh@lemmygrad.ml
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    17 days ago

    The contrast between that and the modern online sentiment of “everyone remotely associated with the crimes of capitalism deserves to die” is stark.

    This is real honestly. This is what I keep trying to remind myself; especially given my particular intersections, like-- it’s some people that I genuinely don’t feel I owe the time, but at my own collision points, especially at the less-than-savory ones, that’s where I owe the most. My time in service shames me, and if any of my blood had any self-awareness, theirs would shame them too because most of them were careerists; and it’s because of that service that I feel obligated to at least try and do even a measure of good work to spite the apparatus that my fingerprints are on.

    I might tire of trying to hold that space and do that work, but that’s not something that I get to quit specifically because of where I’ve been.