I literally got it from a famous trans author who is an anarchist and makes this stuff with her DIY collective and she offered me hormones and I was like all hemming and hawing on signal and shit but I said yes, why would I not, I have so many indications that I am not cis. It is supposed to be good for 10 months, this vial. But I am scared, I have never injected anything except for my GF’s GLP-1 agonist for her. Also I don’t know if I am a woman! I think I am not a guy, but I would rather be without gender! I want my pretty eyes to be focused on my GF’s as I use a strap on her, my cock has always been pretty useless anyway. I kinda have tits already a little without any hormones, like I might have gynecomastia a little and I kinda love it. I want them to be bigger. But do I talk to a therapist about this shit? I feel like they are just gonna gaslight gatekeep girlboss give me spiro and estradiol pills, when I have the girly juice injectable right here with me. I want to be a butch lesbian, I have always thought of myself as a “male lesbian” liking women in a gay way as well as wanting to top and suck off penis havers too, I am a pan service top for all genders and I want to have titties too. I guess I could just see how my body responds to it. I am still kinda wonderin though. I was allowed to be genderqueer as a child in the 1990s but I was genderqueer as a child in the 1990s and my first friends didn’t understand that I thought I was a boy even though I was wearing a pink cute dress like the other 5 year old girls, and then I was so traumatized by that day that I only remember crying and asking my parents to get me shorts “like the boys” and that magnet kindergarten was the crucible in which shame over myself and my gender and my ability to detect people trying to lie to me and take advantage of me (those pokemon card trades/ethics governing them really stick with a bitch!!) was forged. So yeah IDK if I am a woman but I am not a cruel shitty boring cis white man, I have never been that even though society projected that on me and punished me for not living up to the standards they set. Fuck that. I won’t be a failed, sad man. I should be a happy nonbinary thing. Or a woman. IDK. Not a man though.

  • themoonisacheese@sh.itjust.works
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    3 months ago

    Don’t take them. You don’t need hormones to be anything, and injecting DIY anything into your body could be a disaster. How do you even know that this person is who they claim they are? They could even be a transphobe trying to get you killed for all you know.

    Take some time away from them and truly try to reflect on how you feel. Talk to people who are not pushing you to do anything, and who you know are safe.

    I recommend this discord server, they’ve helped me figure out what’s going on in my head in the past and are very safe: https://discord.gg/lgbtqplus

    • Fiona@discuss.tchncs.de
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      3 months ago

      Don’t take them. You don’t need hormones to be anything,

      Except, in many, many instances, to be happy.

      and injecting DIY anything into your body could be a disaster.

      Please explain how. There is no evidence that DIY-HRT is responsible for any meaningful amount of harm, but an uncountable amount of reports on how it saved lives!